The rate at which I retreat, retract, burn bridges and build walls scares me sometimes. How am I supposed to explain myself and my train of thoughts when I don't even know where they stem from or the rationale or reason behind them. How do I give an answer to a question I don't have the answer for and what I am supposed to do when a 'i don't know' doesn't suffice but an 'i don't know' is all I have to offer? Do I insist on my stubborn ways or conjure something up of out thin air and say the scripted lie just to please your ears but not my lips mind and heart? I'm thinking of multiple thoughts and scenarios right now my mind is in a jumble, I'm feeling kind of confused right now afterall I've never been one to multitask.
I guess this trip came right on time, some distance and time away and fresh mountain air will do me some good.
2311 hours, I'll be catching a coach to Genting highlands at 0500 am so the most practical thing to do right now would be to sleep am I right?
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